i shouldnt have gone to siqi's birthday outing. i didnt enjoy myself one bit except when sinyee came was sooo glad to see her like a desert receiving rain how i loved that only happy time i can just picture the others going up to the cinema, without me and they said to leave the cinema at 4 to meet sinyee and i thought they really will, but they didnt eventually causd the both of us to wait for them till 5+ was standing there like a nobody starving they finally appeared thought they were going back to admiralty how silly of me to think that way I held back lots of tears. hoping that they will notice but no! And I dont know why i'm complaining down here although its siiqii's birthday. cried all the way from cwp till i came out of my house bathroom.(bathed) everyone knew i cried in the bathroom cause my eyes were red and i still cried during dinner i now realised that money is most important when you're with friends if you dont have any, you might as well not go
